Changed tides.

Conversation occurred. It didn't go well. I tried really hard to make it go well but the second I started up the discussion I could tell I had already lost a battle. Allow me to recap some of the highlights of this.

I'M GOING TO GO INSANE.

First I told her that I was very upset that she had an issue with me and told 2 separate people about it instead of me. Her reply? That's why I want out of this bullshit business. People put words in your mouth.

Okay. So speak directly TO ME instead of ABOUT ME and things won't be exaggerated. I told her that. Then she told me she wasn't going to apologize to me. My reply? I didn't come here looking for an apology just to let you know next time you have an issue with me tell me first please.

She told me basically that I was useless unless it came to putting miles on a horse. That Dewey bucked off a rider who will remain nameless because she finally treated him like a horse. That I was certainly not the kind of rider to put training on a horse and everyone knew that. Dewey isn't worked hard when I ride him and basically I let him get away with everything. I didn't think at the time but I should have said to her 'Well, you taught me lessons for years. So who's fault is it that I don't know enough to be a useful rider again? Oh yeah. Yours.'

Then (oh yes, I'm still not done raging about this) she said that she was upset that morning when I stood there watching the mares out in the field and didn't bother opening the gate when she came down with a horse in each hand. Well. I couldn't help it. I told her I was offended when, the night before, she stood in her yard watching me with Dewey rearing& being riled up and just walked away. She told me she didn't have shoes on. I told her you didn't even need feet to ask me if I was alright.

Then she said the following and it flooered me: Yvonne, you know what I'd say to you or anyone who has a problem with me and how I run MY barn? Leave then. Walk out. My barn, my rules.

WOW. Nice to hear from a woman who I was very, very good to for 12 years. Nice to know she cares enough to try to understand my problem. So at this point I was so mad I thought I might cry. So I told her I don't have a horse there and I don't owe her a dime so I can walk out very easily. Then I did.

Can you tell how mad I still am?!